outside silent like an angel and inside screaming like a demon.

remember this and remember well. it is, after all, a lonely world. a world where two people can share the same heart, but there will always be something missing. the saddest of the sad is, how eventually, we as humans outgrow the things we love, and all we could do is remember how they once made us feel          
                                                       ~r.m. drake 


People!! We can't live without them and we can't handle them...its sad when we love someone so much and what do they do? walk away and hurt you. its like you give someone your world and they treat you like rubbish. to be honest soon we get tired...tired of getting hurt,getting taken advantage of,getting teased getting treated like shit and dealing with so much pain that we don't even deserve and then we are accused of being "cold hearted" but the reality is that we are so messed up in the head to even feel anything but what people don't see is the rain in our tears and the thunder in our heart breaking and NO don't give me crap about "everything will be okay" because in the end it will never be okay no matter how hard we try but sadly we'll just get use to the pain, use to faking a smile and acting like nothing is wrong. you can try your hardest to love someone, care for them, give them everything but they'll still leave you like you were never part of there life. no body can see that you are breaking inside. how can someone care so much and  at the same time feel so empty inside? its a nightmare we'll never wake up from. Its a filthy god damnn hopeless world we live in!

forget what others do to you, its your mind that messes up with you real bad. its the monsters that live inside us. they are the thoughts that keep us awake at night, sometimes you don't want to be left alone because the thoughts will kill you. i don't think they realize how sleepless nights can effect you. or how over-thinking slowly kills you. i don't think they know how it can turn your mind into thoughts you wish weren't yours. No matter how hard you try but no body understands, you can escape everyone but not yourself so truly your the one to blame because who can love a person who doesn't even love themselves!

                                                                                                                Kashmala xx

I like people who smile when its raining!

Ermm its raining in England so i just though i will blog it... Is it just me does rain effect everyone's mood?? okay sometimes rain puts me in such a good mood but sometimes the gloomy,dark and sad weather makes me sad too. *weird*

 do you love the rain?? falling asleep to the sound of rain? the smell after rain?dancing in the rain? In my opinion rain makes everything beautiful, i just love it when it rains, looking up at the sky to feel the raindrop,the feeling is just amazing. i'm sure we've read this quote; "some people feel the rain.other just get wet" i guess i'm one of those people who feels the rain *i know very cheesy* it also brings back all the good childhood memories i have, maybe that's one of the reason why i'm such a big fan of rain... okay if none of this makes you happy then all you need is rain, good book and hot chocolate...i swear it will make you soo happy. or simply just hearing the raindrops. :')

moving on to rain being the bad thing...well its been raining a lot here so its kinda putting me in a "sad" mood, i don't know why its just bringing back all the good/bad memories. i guess its one of those rains "where its falling because it can no longer hold the weight,just like the tears fall because they can no longer handle the pain" Haha wow me and rain have connection. its been giving me mixed feelings or maybe i'm just waiting for the summer.

                   

                                 -if people were rain i was drizzle and she was a hurricane-                                                     

-kashmala xx